Something of a quandary: what on earth can I wear tonight? Fine, you men out there don’t have this problem, at least most of you don’t, but we women have to bear so many things in mind when we’re dressing: where we’re going; who we’re going with; who else is going to be there; what sort of relationship it is; whether we want to impress someone; whether we want to impress someone we’re with and on and on …
At the moment we, the red-haired beauty and I, are in the ‘getting to know you’ phase. That there is something there, more than just a spark of friendship, is clear to both of us. At the same time, we are both mature enough – she is nineteen and coming to the end of her training course to be a nurse – to know that there is far more to any relationship than just jumping around on a bed and testing the springs. Anyone can do that. Anyone can find someone for the one night and then move on as if nothing special had happened; but that’s not what I want.
Fair enough, whenÃƒâ€šÃ‚Â was travelling it was different. We all knew that our time together was going to be limited and made the most of it. Now, however, I am settled down, at least for the next couple of years, and need something which is more stable, long-lasting if not permanent. So, while I want to impress her, I don’t want to go overboard and scare her off with anything too extravagant, outlandish or obvious
which cuts out the really short skirts. Aside from which, the weather is not of the best for such clothes; I’d rather be warm and comfortable even if it means not looking ravishing but, at the same time, I want to appear at least a little bit sexy. The clothing we wear shows not only what we want but also how much we are prepared to work for it. If I greeted her in the nude when she comes to visit, well, that would be fairly obvious. If I was just wearing a dressing gown with nothing underneath – which is what I had on when she first appeared at my door – that would also be fairly obvious, but show a little bit more patience. She’s going to have to work at it!
Simply put, there is more to this than just appearance, more than just creating a sexy image for someone else. And that’s why I’m spending so much time and energy trying to decide what I should wear. I don’t want to be the woman with the cute bum and nothing more than that.
And then there is the question: what should I wear underneath?
Something special but simple or
the full works?
Oh, it’s all so complicated!
Love & Kisses, Viki.